Not looking forward to anything.

It was a good day to be in office yesterday.

Finally felt appreciated for my effort.. well at least.. Boss finally so called acknowledged that I did a 'good' job with the changes to the storyboard. Heh, it's really alot of effort put into it yesterday.. but I'm picking things up. Just can't wait to do my very own 'boards. In time..

You know what?.. My boss really has a Two-Faced personality.. at one point he was all good.. and another.. he is like this extremely bad person. Well, he's human.. we all are. You know, I overheard from a colleague, Boss wants to take a break.. or rather.. Boss wants the company to take a 2 week break in October and we have a company outing... OUTSIDE OF SINGAPORE. But alas.. I couldn't care less about it.. Army beckons me on the 6th of October 2008, and I still am not making time with the love of my life..

Well,.. lovelife bit of my life.. nothing much has progressed. Managed to get a reply from her in an sms after about 2 days of silence. I guess that's a small, really small progress, from what that's been happening from day 1 of the disagreement. At least something progressed, right?.. Right? I feel pathetic.. I've nearly given up hope on her.. but something in me just told me not to go yet. It's just that things heal real slowly.

I... just don't know what to do. Looks like, its gonna be an empty Hari Raya Puasa for me.

I don't know what to do..

When you're pressured, just do what you're told and don't question.

And yes.. welcome back people to another entry.

A rather funny day.. I didn't mention to you guys that yesterday,.. one of the company's new batch of interns go 'fired'. Boss had one of his days.. PMS to the point we all just got pushed aside. My intern's story is another whole new story.

You see, when your in-charge is around, you should never do something that will make 'em boil. So well, the intern did was on the net instead of work. Boss closed her browser.. and the intern switched it on again when boss was away, only to be switched off again by boss. And THAT got boss so mad.. he kicked the intern out. BAD VIBES THE WHOLE DAY yesterday. When he left for home.. man was EVERYONE relaxed. Heheh..

Today, the intern came back to office and all the interns had a little chat with boss in his room. Seems like he must be 'apologising' in his own way without saying the words, "I apologise..". Boss might have been at his weakest 'cause I see him as a rather confident yet a little brash.. but still good enough a business man. But saying this does not equate me to liking him.. just that.. I can't careless for anyone that much but help when I can.. and if not.. JUST DO MY WORK AND FINISH IT WITHIN TIME OR AS PROMISED.

Simple way I believe in.. (learned it from my Army days).. Just do what you're instructed to do, do to your strengths and as fast as possible. Absorb all the negatives and positives and turn it into something that will make you move ahead.

To me, initiatives are not the way, but hardwork.. 'cause I've been brought down before because of my initiatives. I notice hardwork is second to none.

"I love my job.. I love my job.. I love my job.. I love my job..", hahaha... sometimes.. it helps.. hehe.

Oh yeah, if you're stressed, might I recommend this technique. Go to the toilet, check no one is near the vicinity.. then flush.. and SCREAM!! Haha.. once the flush is completed,.. repeat the same step! Once your satisfied.. take a piss (don't forget to flush) and walk out look normal. It works... well at least for a certain female colleague of mine.. hahahaha.

(To her: Told you I'll write it down! heheh..)

Alrights, that's all for now. Have fun!

(I'm so gonna die tomorrow, Boss is gonna overlook all my works on the storyboard.. SCARY SHIT!!..)

Beautiful day turned bad.

Wow.. I thought I am going to have a good day..

I had about 7 pages worth of changes to do today. The changes are on storyboard level and it ain't that hard to do it. Kinda happy that I breezed through 3 pages in less than 30 - 45 minutes. That's pretty fast considering that you have to make LOADS of changes, from re-drawing certain panels and stuffs.

It's a small achievement I won't brag about. Well,.. happily breezing through when something... or rather someone.. (My BOSS).. told me that he thinks, to assist me and the animators, I am to compile a WHOLE list of expressions of a character. Then, classify 'em to Basic expressions or Useful ones. Heh.. DAMN, was I so pissed off when I was to do in Adobe FLASH. And by the HEAVENs.. I KNOW NUTS ABOUT FLASH.. all I know what to properly do was just.. create a new file. SUCK RIGHT!

Sucked my thumb dry... Eh! Forgot.. fasting la. I.. err.. endured about 2 hours worth of know-hows from a friend who is luckily patient... and after.. 5 hours just learning crash course... I finally knew how to handle it. Damn it.. heh!

Right at the moment of this post.. my work is only about 3/4 done. Hope to complete it proper tomorrow!

Heh.. but well.. its.. well, fun after awhile.. 'cause I finally feel busy properly!

Aight, I gotta sign out now..

Updates real soon!

(Finally I get to sell my 9 day old, Spore Standard Edition. For S$30. Finally get to let it go.. damn stupid and boring game.. regretted waiting for the game queueing for about 2 hours for the launch. GOOD RIDDANCE!)

The First Post and its all crap.

Wow, my very first post and it's gonna suck.

Trust me.. 'coz I had one hell of a day.

Firstly, well being a Storyboard Artist, you have to have a good set of drawing hands to do the scenes nicely. My job is to draw a scene or recreate a scene from a script and my imagination. It sounds fun and easy.. TRUST ME! It's not easy at all.. when you have loads of things to 'copy from, like character sheets. Gotta be mindful of character sizes, Background and placements. NOT EASY!

Well,.. I can cope.. only that it gets more and more demanding, like today. Officially, I was told my works are not up to standard. Here's the thing about Storyboarding..

I understand we need to keep it clean from the roughs.. but the animators (basically, once I'm done 'boarding out the scenes, animators take over.), yes the animators, DON'T HAVE TO FOLLOW DRAWING AFTER DRAWING. Yes I set the designs as such.. but if I had skewed the drawing a little.. YOU DON'T HAVE TO FOLLOW IT. Common sense please... THAT IS WHAT THE CHARACTER SHEETs ARE FOR!! Damn it..

Well,.. I'm paid to work.. not to complain.. and this fasting period is really making me test my patience.

It doesn't help too.. that when you're at fault and the cause of many of your relationship's problems. The other is adamant but always patient.. and the other just won't bother to realise. AND the don't bother is me.

Fuck right being me. I was never like this. I was better than this.. better in every way possible that she even once said,.. "Why didn't we meet earlier? I'm so happy to have you..". I guess, and ain't confident, I would say I was good enough for her then.. Now it seems like I've totally lost faith in myself.. I've lost her respect for me.. feeling as though I'm unappreciated even for the small things I did for her. I'm just so lost and I just been patiently waiting for a sign.. or rather.. I don't even know what I'm waiting for. I don't want to lose her.. for its been the best times through thick and thin, dark and light.

I want to be the man that I was.. when money was never a problem.. when Time would just be there for you.. when efforts are realised.. and when Love was ever present. From where I have failed.. I have seen changes.. and from where I see changes.. I see a little more of my old self. Taking things a step at a time.. If she cannot be patient.. then.. I AM NEVER meant for her.

BUT FUCKING HELL... I love her.

Well on a sour note.. I still am content how the day went.. and realise that I'm still not as good as I thought I was. Time to look at myself in the mirror.. and realise the shit that I am.

WHAT A FUCKED UP first entry. heh.. it'll get better I promise.