So alone.. so quiet..

Feeling down..

It's like everything I wanna do today.. is pushed aside.

And... it's like girlfriend is showing me the cold shoulders.. even the way she replies to me.. seems.. like she's being cold to me.

I know you're sick and down with Fever and Sorethroat.. but that should never be the cause of this coldness you're showing to me.

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS..?

(only this image today made me feel happy.. well a little.)

Dull, yet meaningful.

Slow Hari Raya this year..

Doesn't help that I'm leaving for ICT (In-Camp Training) next week on the 6th to 18th of October.

The 2nd and 3rd week of my 'Raya month is spoiled. Thanks SAF..

Hmm.. Yeah,.. eventhough the day is coming closer as we speak, I still feel I'm going through a rather good enough Hari Raya this year. I've gotten back with my girlfriend of 1 year 6 months and 12 days. We've understood the things that brought us down.. and the things that brought us up again. Compromise, people. Compromise is the only way. Hope to have a great a lunch/dinner with her tomorrow. Hopefully she can leave her home for the day!!! (hehehe..)

Haizz, but still eventhough the day was great, there's always something to make it dull or bad. So many secrets from my relatives.. and all are just unecessary to know... and dad, still arguing with my mum... AGAIN?! Oh, getting rather..... unecessary.

Yeah, it's sad now that I can no longer get green packets. Haha, BUT still amazed that I DID get about 3 packets totalling to about $24. Ahahah.. since I'm working now, following the tradition here in Singapore, working parties must contribute. No complains.. on my part yet.

That's all for today. Enjoy your days people!

Hehe.. it's been great.

Yeah, finally.. the eve of Hari Raya. Haha.. so close to the finish line!

And officially I declare.. THIS IS MY FIRST COMPLETED FASTING. Other times I'll just fall sick or just didn't want to fast.

Yeah, things are nearly prepared. I'm gonna get my army peripherals after I end my day at work at 1.30pm. Maybe head to Sim Lim Square for awhile, get myself updated with what's new there. Been eyeing this Graphics Card, Nvidia GeForce 280GT 1GB (I think that's the name.. always forgetting it..). Might think of getting the cheaper model.. the Nvidia GeForce 260GT (nearly 1GB ram). But I only worry about performance and money now. When I get the Graphics Card.. I need to get the Cooler system. Total price, should be around $800 ~ $900. Scary shit, but will be worth the time. Next up will be my Processor.. but taking it REAL slow now.

Oh,.. I think of getting a game too.. bored at home playing with the same games.

Hmm, just got myself CRYSIS: Warhead yesterday. FUN! FUN! FUN FUN FUN!! I just love to take things down with loads of bang!! Hahaha..

To every Muslim out there.. Selamat Hari Raya. Forgive and move on people. It's time to embrace better days.

To all non-Muslims out there.. May you have a good holiday.

Be back with you guys/gals again!

Let it begin!

One more thing left to do.

TO LOSE WEIGHT.

I shall begin with today, by cutting down on anything high in carbohydrates. That's the real 'cause of my ballooning up! I will cut down on drinking water as in.. drink to the point of thirst only. My body tends to hold on to water, water-retention, and well that also results with me have soft fats (WHICH I AM HONESTLY GLAD.. if not it will be tough to lose it).

So here today.. (after a pretty heavy dinner yesterday night).. I am 93kg. I aim by end of the year, is to reach 85kg. My current target for now.

(Saving up for gym trips too.. 'cause I'm hitting them often soon)

Oh, I've got to run at least 5km every 2 -3 days.. and make it often real soon too... scary!

PUMP UP THE DISCIPLINE!!!