The day to remember..

Today.. 3 years ago.. 12 hours away from now.

Is the death of my late cousin, to a rather big motorbike accident.

Junaidi Bin Khamis, 31 years old, attached and ready to get married. That was his status then.

I still remember clearly how much fun I had when he was around. I mean, yeah, he does playfully tease me.. but I have to say, he is the CLOSEST to a bigger brother. Damn, I miss him. It was a real shock to me to hear that my family lost a relative to an accident. Haizz.. I mean, I thought it was a dream when my mum, told me she was heading to the hospital that night 3 years ago. I was already asleep.. ready for camp the next day.

I'm not the type that cry... but that day.. I wept.. and I didn't stop 'til I slept that night.

At a young age,.. 31 years old.. planning to get married. Well,.. he's in a better place now.

About a few months later.. its my girlfriend's brother's demise too.. He had a crash. I wish I could get to know him.. I mean,.. we could relate alot. Well..

Yeah,.. today is a remembrance day.. for the ones we lost.

May they rest in peace.

Everything went so well..

Everything went so well yesterday.

It was my second year anniversary.. and I felt so great.


We caught 'Coming Soon' at the cinema.. though we really wanted to catch 'Slumdog Millionaire'. Haha.. too bad. The timings were so late!

I treated her to dinner, at Pastamania. Wow.. really feeling sia!

And yeah.. then we took a walk to Cathay and sat down.
Not long ago, I made a video, a photo montage of our past years. It really touched my girlfriend, she cried watching it.. hugging and kissing me.

Then I gave her a Heart-shaped pendant. I think she loved it!

I feel so loved now.. love her so much.

Hehe.. I hope to make it a better anniversary next year.

Two sides of a coin.

3 days ago.

We had a general meeting. One of our highly publicised work was done and ready to be showcased to the world (more like Asia) on the 24th (supposedly) of March.. and we were all congratulated.

Yeah,.. didn't really feel attached to the project but I did feel that sense of pride.

Minutes later, was called in.. for a small talk with boss. To my surprise, for that very moment, I felt appreciated by him.. (finally, after so long). He told me I got the drive, and that I've stepped up my 'game' and now playing a better role. That talk gave me a motivation, to work harder.

I realise, that talent is always overshadowed by Hardwork.. and I've proven that by doing alot to catch up on the schedule within 2 weeks of HIGHLY stressful amounts of workload. I did my part.

BUT,.. just yesterday, I got told off my him. Yeah, I understand, I accidently dozed off in front of him. And he kept telling me about the talk we had. Heh,.. you don't know how tired I am... lethargy is still not cleared out of my system after that past few weeks of full-on concentration! But I controlled.. then again in the evening.. as I'm doing work, (mind you, I was doing the fastest I had ever been) I was reminded 'gently' about 'stepping up'. Boss kinda caught me watching videos.. but hey.. my hands never stopped moving. I've churned out alot of work yesterday.

I WAS TOLD, I'M NOT CONTRIBUTING TO THE COMPANY..
What do you want?!!

AND I GOT PUT DOWN.

Well,.. whatever la.. I'm under his payroll. Can't do much but lick his shoes.. for now.

Fuck it la.. but at the same time.. I feel so happy to tell the world.. I'm with my girlfriend for 2 years today!

And I'm so proud to have her with me. I want to make it 'til the end with her. It's also time for me to step up to the moment.. and I've got a lovely gift for her..

Tell ya more about it in the next entry!

WHAT THE F**K??!!

Yesterday, Danial asked me out to accompany him to Sim Lim.. (just browse around.)

So we took the train.

You see... there's a small park between ITE Simei and the EXPO... and as we about to reach Tanah Merah.. We saw someone sitting on the bench.. (looks like a middle-aged China man..).. and he is vigorously... MASTURBATING!!!

And you know whats the worst part..? When we saw him masturbating... HE CAME!!
WHAT THE F**K???!!!

I mean... and I thought.. Isn't Singapore a very conservative country..?
I know these things happen.. but... WHAT THE F**K?!

Haizz.. sicko!

Weekly Blogs?

Dang,.. it's turning out to be a weekly blog here.. once a week kinda thing. Hehs.. Thanks to work.. I've been forced to do a weekly update here.

Oh well..

Yeah,.. I've been well,.. I've been great.. but I did hit a low again.. but still its just work. Frustration has started to kick in. I'm hoping soon this will end by April!

You know what?.. End of this month.. I'm going for another Paintball session! And I'm hoping I could bring my girlfriend along. I just want her to have fun, just call it, another Anniversary gift from me to her.

By the way,.. I've suddenly had the inspiration of going to Thailand. Maybe end of this year.. With Alfredo, Sarah, Danial, Me, My Gal,.. and maybe other friends too. Hehe,.. I can't wait! I hope my gal can save up for the trip too.. for I know, I'm gonna save up for that trip!!

Well,.. for now,... BACK TO WORK!

I'm so exhausted.

This is really the most exhausting period in my entire working life in this company.

I feel so overwhelmed!

Nevermind.. I'm so gonna work hard and manage my time right.

I need the time!

Its been tough this past few days.. I'm at my all time low..

And I nearly... broke up with my girlfriend of nearly 2 years.. out of my own selfish ways. I realised.. she means so much to me.. THAT I cried to even think I questioned my love towards her.

I shall not go deep into it..
For now I know,.. its resolved.. and I can feel,.. the love coming back.

I really am feeling so overwhelmed and overworked.. at work.
Haizz... I'm actually fearing that I might lose my job.. as I can't seem to hit the datelines.. AS TOO MUCH IS GIVEN TO ME SUDDENLY!!

God give me the strength and confidence..