Two sides of a coin.

3 days ago.

We had a general meeting. One of our highly publicised work was done and ready to be showcased to the world (more like Asia) on the 24th (supposedly) of March.. and we were all congratulated.

Yeah,.. didn't really feel attached to the project but I did feel that sense of pride.

Minutes later, was called in.. for a small talk with boss. To my surprise, for that very moment, I felt appreciated by him.. (finally, after so long). He told me I got the drive, and that I've stepped up my 'game' and now playing a better role. That talk gave me a motivation, to work harder.

I realise, that talent is always overshadowed by Hardwork.. and I've proven that by doing alot to catch up on the schedule within 2 weeks of HIGHLY stressful amounts of workload. I did my part.

BUT,.. just yesterday, I got told off my him. Yeah, I understand, I accidently dozed off in front of him. And he kept telling me about the talk we had. Heh,.. you don't know how tired I am... lethargy is still not cleared out of my system after that past few weeks of full-on concentration! But I controlled.. then again in the evening.. as I'm doing work, (mind you, I was doing the fastest I had ever been) I was reminded 'gently' about 'stepping up'. Boss kinda caught me watching videos.. but hey.. my hands never stopped moving. I've churned out alot of work yesterday.

I WAS TOLD, I'M NOT CONTRIBUTING TO THE COMPANY..
What do you want?!!

AND I GOT PUT DOWN.

Well,.. whatever la.. I'm under his payroll. Can't do much but lick his shoes.. for now.

Fuck it la.. but at the same time.. I feel so happy to tell the world.. I'm with my girlfriend for 2 years today!

And I'm so proud to have her with me. I want to make it 'til the end with her. It's also time for me to step up to the moment.. and I've got a lovely gift for her..

Tell ya more about it in the next entry!