Don't ask me for insight if I'm gonna be put down.

As the title implies.. don't bother asking me if any insights, suggestions or comments are gonna be put down hard.

Since an insight, suggestion or comment.. is just an insight, suggestion or comment,.. leave all your remarks to yourself.

'Cause, even a stupid insight, suggestion or comment can make a whole lot of change / difference to many things.

Think about that before you shoot down anyone.

It is confirmed.

Yeah,.. Paintball with colleagues on the 22nd of January. (Team-building event.. heh.. more like Team-slaughtering.. hehehe..)

My first ever paintball session.. it's definitely gonna hurt. Hey, a 20 cent coin-sized bruise at every hit of the projectile.. its really gonna hurt.. yet gonna be fun too.
Hmm.. can't wait for that day.. just wanna get a break from the monotony of work.

By the way, my running seems to be getting better.. as in, my fitness is getting better. I managed to complete my regular distance, at a faster pace yesterday night. Today, I'm not gonna push myself,.. just run and well,.. don't push. Tomorrow, taking a break, and this coming Saturday, is my IPPT. (That's why, I am not pushing myself,.. to avoid injury or muscle fatigue.)

Yup.. I just need to sleep or rest earlier than normal.. ever since I started running.. I'm always waking up not feeling freshed. Sleeping earlier might solve this matter.

Anyways, it seems, this year's resolution is turning out to be a reality. Hehe..

And I feel... I got a renewed feeling of love towards my girlfriend. Detail's?..
Let's just say, there are words she mentioned to me that made me feel better,.. and more confident. I love her.

A new year.. without any bang.

Yeah.. 2009 came.. and not with much fanfare.

Economic downturn.. is the serious cause of this glumness. But, just be prepared to be spending and living tighter than before.

Anyways, I have bad news.. my girlfriend's grandmother has passed away. Today, exact time, I do not know.. but today, she died, of old age.. we're all assuming at the moment.

Yeah, at this time of typing, the body has just left the house, to be buried..

Honestly, I do not know what to do.. or say. I've never ever, in my entire life, experienced a grandmother passing away. This is one part of me.. I will never experience. So to be fair and honest, I do not know how to react.

I've only experienced the loss of cousin to a bike accident... miss him.

For now,.. I will try to understand the feelings of my girlfriend and give her all the space that she needs. I hope to give her all the opportunity she can if she ever needs a shoulder to cry on.

Damn,.. I know its hard to lose someone.. but.. I can never feel the same way as her.

Only thing I can advice.. be strong, dear.

New Year's Resolution.

This is what I am aiming to achieve in 2009.

1. Be a better person.

Towards my parents, my girlfriend and to others. Especially to my parents.. who thinks I'm a terrible disappointment to them.

2. Lose weight to about 85kg by June.

Yeah, I have begun running.. and I need to run more. Steadily but super-slowly losing weight.. but in the end.. getting fitter.

3. Save up to at least $2000.

I gotta think ahead for my future.

4. Be more responsible.

Especially to my brother's education, since he's going through 'O' Levels.

Haha,.. last year's resolution.. I can't remember at ALL!.. Hahaha... this time.. must take it seriously!!!

oh.. and one more..

5. Control my impulse.

So that I do not waste my money on nonsense.

(P.S.:- This list will increase or updated. I will keep looking through this.)

And so it was my parent's 25th Anniversary.

You know what I hate most when I'm on a working day..?
It's that, I have to meet a specific time to be fetched by my parents. I really hate to be in that situation.

Yeah,.. Happy 25th anniversary. Congrats, I'm happy for you, Mama and Abah.

Congratulations.. and celebrations.. woohoo!

Haizz... can you believe it? I was like given an ultimatum, as to whether I can leave early from work. FUCK, I'm working!.. Can my dad do the same too? Not really, so yeah.. NOT REALLY FOR ME LA. I have my works I have to finish real soon... If need be, you go have your dinner without me, IF YOU'RE SO PRESSED WITH TIME. (I understand, that as a family we have dinner.)

And so, I left work at 6.30pm. I thought we just wanted to have dinner at our regular chicken rice restaurant, Evertop Hainanese Chicken Rice. But my brother HAD TO ask for more.. It was planned earlier that, we're all gonna have dinner at the chicken rice restaurant, then we head to East Coast, Food Village for another meal, Satay.

Bad move on my dad.

Heh, I'm on a more controlled diet than before.. so I ate to my filling. That means the chicken rice was enough already. Haizz.. then we headed to East Coast. I already told my mum, I'm not eating alot.

We ordered drinks, to which AT THIS FUCKING POINT, I was told by mum, that she wants Sugar Cane Drink, my bro, Coke, and dad, Coconut Drink. NOTE: Coconut drink. ONLY. Twice I asked for the order.

And so the drinks arrived, and dad gave me a FUCKED-UP face. He WANTED COCONUT DRINK.. no other specifics. NONSENSE..!!! I gave him a Coconut drink, that is with the fruit.. WHICH IS STILL... a Coconut Drink!

HE NEVER FUCKING MENTION, HE WANTED IT TO BE IN A GLASS..?!!!!!

And here begins my dad, SPEWING OUT WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT I AM.. man, he's crazy.. Get your orders right first.

AND SO I DID GIVE HIM THAT DRINK.. I'm not happy at all.. and well,.. as I've said before,.. I didn't eat alot. Had 5 sticks of satay.. and 2 chicken wing and a drumstick.. which was considered very little to my standard of eating.

Haizzz.. whatever la.. fuck it la..

By the way, Happy anniversary.. DAD..

Great to have old friends!

Isn't it great.. when a perfect idea goes to work?
And... it really is/was great!

Just yesterday.. friends from Griffiths Primary, Class 6/6.. had a gathering. A barbeque pit at Pasir Ris Beach.

Me, Munawar, Haszlin, Azrin, Hetty, Noraiza, Faidah, Iswandi, Juana, Aslam, Zainuddin and Suhery, came down.. and had probably.. the best time together, as a class! Hahaha.. we played kites, made noise, joke around, music blasting, merry-making, eating, gossiping, advicing.. but.. the most important.. WE HAD FUN!

Hehe.. damn.. so much we really caught up.

Only depressing thing for me is.. many are getting engaged, engaged and getting married REALLY Soon!! Pressure on self here... ahahahaha... I'm not gonna rush.. but well,.. the pressure does get to you.

P.S.:- The guy in green with that pout.. That's Iswandi. The pretty ladies?.. Those two are my "Mums" in Primary 6.. from left to right.. Faidah and Noraiza.

Run Hammett.. Run!!

And so... he ran and ran..

Haha.. I've been doing great running every night for the past few days already.
so far lost only 2kg (water-loss only.. heh).

So from, 95kg to 93kg.

Abit more to my FIRST target..!

Current Target: 90kg.

Next Target: 85kg.

-------------------------------------------------------

By the way,.. just yesterday, my boss treated a few of my colleagues (and their significant other), to a show.. Another Crazy Christmas. Haha... man, I had really a good time. Amazing, I was really entertained by the acts from Hossan Leong and gang. Hahahah... farking funny.. but lazy to describe hehe..

Oh, my girlfriend was there too. Actually, I was out with her to celebrate my 1yr 9mths with her.. and I guess this show was an "un-planned" gift for her. Heh..

Today, my company celebrated my boss's and colleague's birthday and we all had a nice Christmas lunch. Eating Nasi Lemak and Nasi Minyak.

Hehe.. ok, thats all for now!