Two sides of a coin.

3 days ago.

We had a general meeting. One of our highly publicised work was done and ready to be showcased to the world (more like Asia) on the 24th (supposedly) of March.. and we were all congratulated.

Yeah,.. didn't really feel attached to the project but I did feel that sense of pride.

Minutes later, was called in.. for a small talk with boss. To my surprise, for that very moment, I felt appreciated by him.. (finally, after so long). He told me I got the drive, and that I've stepped up my 'game' and now playing a better role. That talk gave me a motivation, to work harder.

I realise, that talent is always overshadowed by Hardwork.. and I've proven that by doing alot to catch up on the schedule within 2 weeks of HIGHLY stressful amounts of workload. I did my part.

BUT,.. just yesterday, I got told off my him. Yeah, I understand, I accidently dozed off in front of him. And he kept telling me about the talk we had. Heh,.. you don't know how tired I am... lethargy is still not cleared out of my system after that past few weeks of full-on concentration! But I controlled.. then again in the evening.. as I'm doing work, (mind you, I was doing the fastest I had ever been) I was reminded 'gently' about 'stepping up'. Boss kinda caught me watching videos.. but hey.. my hands never stopped moving. I've churned out alot of work yesterday.

I WAS TOLD, I'M NOT CONTRIBUTING TO THE COMPANY..
What do you want?!!

AND I GOT PUT DOWN.

Well,.. whatever la.. I'm under his payroll. Can't do much but lick his shoes.. for now.

Fuck it la.. but at the same time.. I feel so happy to tell the world.. I'm with my girlfriend for 2 years today!

And I'm so proud to have her with me. I want to make it 'til the end with her. It's also time for me to step up to the moment.. and I've got a lovely gift for her..

Tell ya more about it in the next entry!

WHAT THE F**K??!!

Yesterday, Danial asked me out to accompany him to Sim Lim.. (just browse around.)

So we took the train.

You see... there's a small park between ITE Simei and the EXPO... and as we about to reach Tanah Merah.. We saw someone sitting on the bench.. (looks like a middle-aged China man..).. and he is vigorously... MASTURBATING!!!

And you know whats the worst part..? When we saw him masturbating... HE CAME!!
WHAT THE F**K???!!!

I mean... and I thought.. Isn't Singapore a very conservative country..?
I know these things happen.. but... WHAT THE F**K?!

Haizz.. sicko!

Weekly Blogs?

Dang,.. it's turning out to be a weekly blog here.. once a week kinda thing. Hehs.. Thanks to work.. I've been forced to do a weekly update here.

Oh well..

Yeah,.. I've been well,.. I've been great.. but I did hit a low again.. but still its just work. Frustration has started to kick in. I'm hoping soon this will end by April!

You know what?.. End of this month.. I'm going for another Paintball session! And I'm hoping I could bring my girlfriend along. I just want her to have fun, just call it, another Anniversary gift from me to her.

By the way,.. I've suddenly had the inspiration of going to Thailand. Maybe end of this year.. With Alfredo, Sarah, Danial, Me, My Gal,.. and maybe other friends too. Hehe,.. I can't wait! I hope my gal can save up for the trip too.. for I know, I'm gonna save up for that trip!!

Well,.. for now,... BACK TO WORK!

I'm so exhausted.

This is really the most exhausting period in my entire working life in this company.

I feel so overwhelmed!

Nevermind.. I'm so gonna work hard and manage my time right.

I need the time!

Its been tough this past few days.. I'm at my all time low..

And I nearly... broke up with my girlfriend of nearly 2 years.. out of my own selfish ways. I realised.. she means so much to me.. THAT I cried to even think I questioned my love towards her.

I shall not go deep into it..
For now I know,.. its resolved.. and I can feel,.. the love coming back.

I really am feeling so overwhelmed and overworked.. at work.
Haizz... I'm actually fearing that I might lose my job.. as I can't seem to hit the datelines.. AS TOO MUCH IS GIVEN TO ME SUDDENLY!!

God give me the strength and confidence..

What's going on..?

I don't understand why lately,.. I've been in the most foulest mood.

My girlfriend is suffering the sharp end of it. I've lost the mood to even reply her smses. The only time I communicate with her is when SHE calls me.

But at least,.. I feel I've talk things out with her today. I apologised to her.. for the way I've been treating her. I've been neglecting her,.. been out of mood to even talk to her and.. it's like, nothing is going well when I'm out with her.

And,.. I found out.. work.. has taken its toll on my relationship. I've been returning home late for the past few days. Gonna make it up to her soon.. FUCKING hell!!!.. when's payday??!!..

Damn.. I feel like a bad boyfriend.. I don't blame her.

I blame my self.

Aiza's Engaged on V. Day!!

And.. Noraiza, is finally engaged, on the 14th of Feb.
Congrats to her.

Ok,.. make things short, Noraiza, a.k.a Aiza (Kak Aiza), is my very very old 'mum' of mine in Primary school. Haha.. Just a very close friend.

Anyways, wow.. she was beautiful, I have to admit it. (But, definitely,.. if she looks good,.. my girlfriend will look way better on her day. Hehe..)

Yeah,.. a good short gathering with most of my old buds. Fun day, yet hot.. Haha..
Take a look at the pics.